The struggle to create and live life while maintaining some kind of equilibrium can create a lot of anxiety and move us away from the natural free flow of the moment. There is so much beyond us, beyond our understanding, beyond our experience. An infinite sea of things we can never know and a deep need to have some kind of footing and ground throughout it all. Growing up in so much uncertainty, especially if support and validation wasn’t supplied in our childhood homes, can lead to a need to have control. This control can manifest in every facet of our lives: to control the body, to control our lives and the external world, to control our interactions within our relationships and limit and control change. We do this by remaining hyper vigilant, on the attack and defense at all times. We define everything around us including ourselves, and rate everything based on value. We feel a sense of anxiety as we wait for our bubble to burst and our sense of control to fade away leaving us afloat in a sea of chaos. Our very fear of this happening validates the fact that the very idea of control is a fiction we sell ourselves.